you're working so hard / and you're never in charge

I feel pretty awful today.

Not just physically (although I'm willing to bet that a large part of the knot in my stomach is due to the anxiety I'm shouldering), but mentally as well. I just feel dull. Apathetic. I think I'm balancing too many spinning plates; I don't know what to do if I'm not in control.

This internship thing...tests, papers, group projects...an article for the paper that I haven't even started on. I feel like breaking down and crying, but if I do, I don't know if I'll be able to stop.

I know that life is an exaggerated series of peaks and valleys, but this past month has been one long trench that I can't seem to crawl my way out of. I need a vacation. Or a weekend at home. I don't even know if I can do that because of all the work I've yet to do.

In his recent State of the State address, our governor said "Sometimes we just want to stop the world so we can get off."

Amen, brother. Ay-fookin'-men.